Taurus Full Moon & Venus-Uranus Opposition Reading October 2018

I am usually pretty introspective already but the current energy in the air is calling me to take a look at who I am and what I desire in terms in interrelations. Taurus moon makes it a great time to get grounded and centered. This make take a lot of discipline as our stubbornness may get in the way, however, our stubbornness may be exactly the thing to help make us clear about what we want out of life.

Venus, the brightest star in the heavens, represents beauty, magnetism, money and love. Our interrelationships are affected by the positions of this planet as it amplifies and makes us take notice of our desires be they material or personal. In its current retrograde state, meaning that it appears to be orbiting backwards in relation to the surrounding bodies, we are being forced to take a step back and look at our lives from a new perspective – especially in the areas of romance and finance. Fortunately and unfortunately, this can mean a rise of impatience as we become more clear about what we want from our partners, ourselves and the world around us.

To top it off, Uranus is making its way in opposition to Venus. Uranus is the planet of independence, spiritual growth and eccentricity. It represents innovative progression and rebellion against the status quo. As opposing positions tend to mark a time of conflict for the sake of progress, Uranus is adding to our being pushed toward seeing our situations in a new light. Upheaval is often necessary for healing and forward movement and as full moons are a time for release, we should take note of what we can change in order to make steps towards our desired future.

Unpacking Pain

Watered-down, Westernized spirituality has many of us thinking that growth means that we never get sad or angry but if we do, a simple meditation or yoga session will work that right out. Out of compassion for myself and others, I call bullshit. Truth is, much of the wisdom we gain on the road towards ascendance comes from allowing ourselves to dig deep into our hurt spaces and fully feel whatever is bubbling up from them. Even the wounds that have scabbed over or scarred can carry some form of underlying trauma we may or may not have acknowledged or even noticed. I can almost guarantee that for most of us, though, it’s there.

So many of us have become masters of getting by, an effective method for immediate survival. My mom, my sole provider and full-time working woman who couldn’t run to my aid whenever I was ill or hurt, taught me early on that when situations become inconvenient we “tough it out”. However, masking those bruised feelings (or bodies) will not prove sustainable forever.  At some point, we have to heal our shit and it may take a longer than we expect. In the words of Mary DeMuth, “Healing is layers. Healing is time. Healing is excruciating. Once you think it’s done, it’s not.”

“Healing is layers. Healing is time. Healing is excruciating. Once you think it’s done, it’s not” ~Mary DeMuth

As aware of as I am of the necessity of truly dealing with my problems, I am still often surprised at how deep some of my wounds really go or how good I’ve gotten at being functionally dysfunctional all this time; so much so, I didn’t know I had a particular problem until someone else brought it to my attention. Other times, these revelations occurred to me after finding myself worn out in repeated patterns of unwanted circumstances that forced me to look at what I was doing to cause them (also known as “learning the hard way”).

The thing about carrying wounds in today’s world, is that they are easier to mask. Not only do we have access to the vices of our parents’ era (drugs, sex and alcohol), we also have personal technological devices that help and even encourage us to airbrush the scars away after we are done proverbially cutting ourselves. But, imagine the liberation of dropping the weight of it all. Picture yourself embracing your overall beauty without filters. Only then can we actually get in touch with our inner spirits and ascend to true healing.


Intention Over Expectation

The common programming that takes place almost the moment we are cognizant is what we should expect out of people and situations. Helpful in many ways and often influenced by the trends of our culture and subcultures, these ideas take on a particular form that so happens to shape how we perceive the entire universe or at least our life’s journey.

While our optimism is still intact, our expectations tend to be pretty pleasant. We expect our parents to provide for us. We expect our partners to be faithful. We expect things to fall into place. We expect Earth to forever continue floating in space. Then, life continues to unfold, we fall victim to inevitable circumstances and our expectations begin to shift.

Suddenly, we begin to expect our parents’ disapproval and unfaithful lovers. We expect to fall short on achievement. Somewhere along the winding road, we might even expect the Earth, in all its vastness, to come imploding in on itself – in perfect alignment with the chaos we have to come to know as our existence. So, in spite of all the unfortunate happenstances that actually do occur, what separates the survivors from the thrivers? Intention.

Intention is about visualizing where to aim and never loosing sight of the goal, even if the target is missed. If every successful business person quit whenever things didn’t go as expected, there would be no successful businesses. If you ceased applying effort towards your goals in life every time something went wrong, although alive, it would be safe to say you would not have actually done much living.


Expectations are usually the glue that keep up stuck in unnecessarily painful situations. We expect everyone to agree with our opinion so we become enraged when they do not. We expect happiness will somehow find us when we buy something new or switch jobs. Or, we just just know our spouses will forever be true to us no matter what. This is not to say that we should not implement healthy boundaries and standards but the truth is that nothing is certain.

The older I get, the more the things I’ve always known to be true are debunked, the more I run into new opposing views and obstacles.  What I have found is that regardless of my predictions and assumptions, life does not always match up. I learned the hard way that slow and steady does not always win the race and sometimes the apple falls very far from the tree – common and often true conceptions. And although sometimes initially jarring, instead of allowing these realizations to cause upset, I embrace them as new truths to inform the “how” of my intentions.

Hard times come and go just as much as the good times. It’s what you do with each moment that makes the difference. When we hold on to what we “expect”, we will find ourselves disappointed more times than not as life was never meant to be entirely predictable. Where’s the fun in that after all? The ebbs and flows of life are what make us who we are. We can learn a lot about ourselves based on how we handle each present moment as it comes without the stronghold of expectation but rather with the tides of intention. You just might surprise yourself and end up steering your experience down the seas of the unexpected of so much more than you could have ever imagined.