I feel like I’ve harped on the history of my awkward disposition long enough and for that reason, this will be the final addition to my Awkward Aries series. However, I did not want to conclude without mentioning something important: when my awkwardness does not stem from fear.
Allowing outside forces dictate who or what I should be has been a huge battle for me. Luckily, I’ve reached a point in my life where I care less. I’d be lying if I didn’t say I do not have moments where I’m more fragile than others but the need to blend in now feels more like an elementary desire. I was born to stand out – even if that means gaining unwanted attention from tripping over myself from time to time. I’ve accepted it. The clumsiness, the not always knowing what to say, the unpopular opinions and reactions, all of it.
It is the case that acceptance does not mean the awkwardness suddenly fades. It does means that I can find joy within myself as my confidence and lack of smoothness coincide. I am who I am and I can be all of that fearlessly.
Speaking of fearlessness, it, too, can also be the source of awkwardness. At my best, I speak my mind unfiltered, I believe the impossible possible, and I take leaps of faith without a net. Those with good intentions have tried to hinder me out of concern but I must make the choice to follow my own heart even if it puts people off.
Lastly, this series is about my nature as an Aries and the root my odd personality but it is for anyone who can relate. No matter the gender, age or zodiac. If you need this on the growth journey, I hope it finds you. You’re not alone and there is light at the end of the tunnel.