New Moon: April 2018

For many cultures and faiths, new moons are a symbol of new beginnings. This month’s new moon is in Aries which is the first sign of the zodiac, also indicative of rebirth.

This time is about turning over a new leaf. It’s perfect for trying something different or innovative. It is also about going forth on our life’s journey with an assured sense of authenticity and excitement.

In my personal life, I have experienced some emotions and thoughts that are forcing me to let go so I can enter the next phase of my life without baggage. It’s amazing how real we think we are when we feel lower level energies expressed as anger and sadness. However, our Higher Self wants us to experience something greater: authentic joy and oneness. We have to allow ourselves to accept and express this joy. Otherwise, no matter how many great things we achieve, we will never find peace and satisfaction.

One way to welcome in the new moon energy is to cleanse our energetic bodies. Take some alone time to meditate on how you see yourself without the weight of the past holding you down. Light 3 candles: one red, one white, one green or yellow (3 white candles will suffice also). The red candle is for love and relationships. The green or yellow is for financial or overall abundance and success. The white is for the Self and anything else you’d like to focus on improving.

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Meditate and use positive affirmations while these candles burn. Draw yourself a warm/hot salt bath in which you should allow yourself to soak for at least 15 minutes. After you soak, rinse yourself off in the shower with a gentle scrub across you entire body. I recommend including your hair and scalp into this ritual if you are able to. Moisturize your skin with a natural oil or butter and return to your meditation space with a stick of white sage. Repeat your affirmations while burning the sage at each chakra, front and back, starting and ending with the crown.

Take as much time you need to do this and feel free to modify this as you need to. These rituals are about what suit us individually. If you prefer, use rosemary instead of sage or add essential oils to your bath. You can even use tarot or oracle card to aid in your meditation. It’s all up to you.

I hope this new beginning bring about great positive change to each of your lives as I believe it will for mine. Best wishes!

Namaste.

Fearlessly Awkward

I feel like I’ve harped on the history of my awkward disposition long enough and for that reason, this will be the final addition to my Awkward Aries series. However, I did not want to conclude without mentioning something important: when my awkwardness does not stem from fear.

Allowing outside forces dictate who or what I should be has been a huge battle for me. Luckily, I’ve reached a point in my life where I care less. I’d be lying if I didn’t say I do not have moments where I’m more fragile than others but the need to blend in now feels more like an elementary desire. I was born to stand out – even if that means gaining unwanted attention from tripping over myself from time to time. I’ve accepted it. The clumsiness, the not always knowing what to say, the unpopular opinions and reactions, all of it.

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It is the case that acceptance does not mean the awkwardness suddenly fades. It does means that I can find joy within myself as my confidence and lack of smoothness coincide. I am who I am and I can be all of that fearlessly.

Speaking of fearlessness, it, too, can also be the source of awkwardness. At my best, I speak my mind unfiltered, I believe the impossible possible, and I take leaps of faith without a net. Those with good intentions have tried to hinder me out of concern but I must make the choice to follow my own heart even if it puts people off.

Lastly, this series is about my nature as an Aries and the root my odd personality but it is for anyone who can relate. No matter the gender, age or zodiac. If you need this on the growth journey, I hope it finds you. You’re not alone and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Namaste.

Captivated Living

I’m one of those people who can watch the same movie a billion times and feel the emotions of the scenes like it were my first. When I dine, I savor every bite as if it were the last on my plate. I love to listen to music I can feel in my soul lyrically and musically. I have a passion for experiencing the depth of everything that occurs around me.

It’s easy to forget to sink into the details of enjoyment in the midst of the hustle and bustle of the day-to-day. Many of us overlook the journey in pursuit of the end-goal. We allow ourselves to become engulfed in sorrow and responsibility other than being captivated by all the wonder this life has to offer.

One of the movies I tend to watch repeatedly is Collateral Beauty starring Will Smith. In the film, the character played by the fabulous Helen Mirren warns a woman to not miss the collateral beauty in the midst of the dread of losing her daughter. Needless to say, it’s a perplexing statement to make to someone with a dying young child. What beauty could there be in such loss? I won’t ruin the film, but it turned out to be much.

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While I’ve never lost a child, I have experienced loss and even in that I was able to find myself pleasantly captivated by what resulted. Funerals can be quite beautiful – people coming together celebrating the life of a loved one. One could even find benefit in abandonment as many who are tend to learn a great deal of independence and self-love from that type of loss. In the losing of material things, we are often forced to learn the importance of companionship. In the process of dying, there are many who learn to enjoy life that much more.

In the end, it’s a choice to live on this level. I do my best to remember to choose it everyday.

Namaste.

via Daily Prompt: Captivating

Awkward Aries: Misunderstood

It took me a long to realize why I find myself to be so awkward but I eventually boiled it down to one word: Fear. I experience fear all the time. As much as I love to jump into things, I fear of making the wrong choices because once I do I’ll feel obligated to run with it. As a semi-perfectionist, I fear that I will fail as a leader and put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best. I fear that my honesty will unintentionally hurt others and my truth will be misunderstood as hateful criticism. I fear opening up and having my concerns and beliefs take for petty complaints (yes, I have actually experienced these). I’ve been told my problems would be solved if I care less but I’m not entirely sure how to do that without not caring at all.

I get what they mean. When one cares too much, cares turns into concern which breeds anxiety around whatever it is an individual cares about. That anxiety is the root of the fear I experience. In constant conflict with who I am naturally, as a person, a woman, and an individual born atop the zodiac calendar, there is a constant struggle in deciphering when it’s okay to exert energy and when it’s time to fall back. Unfortunately, as a fire sign already prone to extremes, my exertion is sometimes taken as overly aggressive and my withdrawal is often mistook for being uppity – a rock and hard place.

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Honestly, I’ve gotten a bit used to it in my casual social circumstances but it is particularly frustrating in professional settings in which it’s imperative people understand you as you mean them to. As of now, I find it best to be perceived as mostly quiet but a go-getter in my performance. It’s a bit harder to make friends out of co-workers this way but I do okay to get along. I’ve accepted it.

Even more, I’ve accepted that I will always be at risk of being misunderstood. I’m complicated and I do not expect less complex people to relate to me. I never expect to be popular. I don’t even expect to be well-liked. I just make certain to show the respect I want from others because the truth is I don’t always understand other people either. Coming to this realization about myself, I also see that everyone must feel this way at one point or another – even the less awkward, well-liked, popular people.

I figure the more comfortable I am with me, the more likely I will attract others like me. In time, I hope to build a tribe of other complex-minded, mistaken individuals who are hoping to find spaces in which they are allowed to be vulnerable. If you are out there, just know you are not alone.